Wednesday, April 4, 2012

show up

(pre-emptively - I'm trying to figure out why some people aren't able to comment here. On your end, try logging out and see if you can post as anon. It may or may not work. I will keep poking around on this end and see what the dealio is.)


Last night was bad. Awful. In the vicinity of exit strategy. Fortunately, instead of sounding like a good idea, the idea of needing an exit strategy just annoyed me. I'm also aware that the physical pain I have going on lately is making things worse, so I try to just ignore me sometimes. Anyway.

So, I woke up this morning thinking - what good does it do to tell me that godd (in whatever form) is walking with me? It's not like it's tangible. It's not like it's anything practical or useful.  You can't prove it. The day was not starting out well.

I took boris for our walk. Along the way, I found a folded up, slightly damaged, 5 dollar bill. Nice. I stretched the symbol and thought, okay well, a random five dollar gift is maybe a nudge that the financial stuff will be okay. It's probably just a regular old dropped five dollar bill that has been under the winter leaves, but maybe it is also just a little love. Breathe. Tiny bit of space.

Rounded a corner, walking just a few steps, and there on the slope was a book. The title:

You'll Never Walk Alone: God is Always With You.


It's been over an hour now since I've been home. The book is sitting on the kitchen table. It's been a long time since something so concrete has arrived.



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9 comments:

  1. Wow. I needed to hear something like this today. ((hugs))

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  2. i'm still here. i'm glad you're still here. as we so many of us know, our own personal exit sign will appear soon enough. don't go looking for it ahead of time. maybe the five and the book are trying to tell you something. i sort of need you to be here. here's hoping this comment shows up.

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    1. I have an agreement with someone that neither of us can force the exit. Plus, I would be so mad if I had to come back here and do any of this again just because I clocked out early.

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  3. p.s. if you read the book, let me know about that chapter on mourning.

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  4. oh my! that made me laugh out loud! sometimes (rare) clear as bell...other times (most) so obscure...hugs. c

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  5. days later i am still trying to click the Like button on your clocking out early comment, megan

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  6. Holy Dooley. This is awesome Megan. and if this comment goes through it will be even better XA

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  7. Huzzah - I can comment as anonymous!!! But you konw it's me right?

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    1. I do know it's you! Greatness.

      And the above - I know, right???

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