My Friends!
My friends! My friends! However hard you look
You'll not find a trace of human nature in me!
Even the maddest madman could never imagine
What I have imagined in my heart!
I am so extreme, even madmen flee me now!
For I have mingled with death, soured and soared in Non-Being.
- Jalal-ud-Din Rumi
oh Megan, yes yes yes. Thanks for posting this. Sometimes I think that it has woken me up to the fact that I am in fact a spiritual being having a human experience (as opposed to the other way round) and that this loss makes me want to be only a spiritual being ... and with him. But that to do that I have to find more than a trace of human nature in me again. I have it, I have empathy for others who have been bereaved, but little left for those who do not suffer these days.
ReplyDeleteI find that too - I just want to be done with this visible world and go back to the invisible. I'm sure my babe is loving it. I was worried for a long time that the creature I've become won't "land" where he is, that my heart is too broken and my mind no longer free.
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AHHHH, soulmates always find each other, for they are never truly separated ... it just seems so ... your souls are still entwined - it's just that it's more complex now ... you can see yourself, you just can't see him.
ReplyDeleteI totally believe this x