the sadness at digging up the gardenI have kicked butt these last weeks.Not easy, in fact quite a lot of painful
on the floor, knocked down again type things.
but I have been released from some energy drains
have let go of things that only brought frustration
or more pain.
It's weird to not have bees on the to-do list
the habitual thought of needing to get over there
replaced quickly with relief at no-I-don't.
is replaced by renewed irritation
and such readiness to be done
thank you fall woodchuck for reminding me
by eating every last green thing
that had recovered from your previous assault
another carload of things to goodwill
including all the business forms and
professional checkbook ledgers
(the pages with your handwriting removed before the rest went in the box)
your old reel fishing poles, not used in many years
because fly fishing had become your favorite
clearing out the chest freezer
I stood at the sink
holding on to the counter
while hot water rinsed away the contents
of the last ice cream we bought together
a heart left in stark relief while the rest of it melted away
I have done good work, clearing out this place.