tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5517881874258683381.post1646131603603608793..comments2023-06-25T08:45:08.985-04:00Comments on Not Even A Wren: close bymeganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10064483599165161879noreply@blogger.comBlogger9125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5517881874258683381.post-81559968030130055412011-07-31T17:20:32.625-04:002011-07-31T17:20:32.625-04:00I'm pretty good at receiving - just really do ...I'm pretty good at receiving - just really do not like asking. Freely given offers, yes. Making requests, not so much.meganhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10064483599165161879noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5517881874258683381.post-33441831448292266562011-07-31T14:43:44.169-04:002011-07-31T14:43:44.169-04:00yeah, it is VERY hard to ask for help. Hard in tha...yeah, it is VERY hard to ask for help. Hard in that "I need to pay attention: why is this so hard?" way. For me, it is much harder than not asking, accepting that you're on your own and this is the way it is and You Have Less Than You Need. Why is having less than you need ok if no one else is involved? (Question for myself; no reflection on your situation.) Struggling with this a lot these days. Hopefully a lesson is forthcoming.carolynhttp://throughawidowseyes.wordpress.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5517881874258683381.post-16340813827379627292011-07-30T19:24:56.629-04:002011-07-30T19:24:56.629-04:00Thanks, megan. That sounds fair enough. I hope y...Thanks, megan. That sounds fair enough. I hope you will be able to raise enough funds to make the trip to SD.bevhttp://magickcanoe.com/blog14noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5517881874258683381.post-66705283834357685952011-07-30T18:02:07.524-04:002011-07-30T18:02:07.524-04:00though it is super-odd feeling for me to do so, I&...though it is super-odd feeling for me to do so, I'm trying to be a good, at least decent, receiver. If you feel like you want to contribute to airfare (bleh, I do not like this.) apparently you can donate via paypal at mmdevine at ********peacemaildotcom****** without all those *** and spaces. If I don't get close enough to get airfare, I'll send back whatever gets donated. Sort of like a mini version of kickstarter: funds get raised or funds go back.meganhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10064483599165161879noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5517881874258683381.post-59006857640794155752011-07-30T07:26:59.809-04:002011-07-30T07:26:59.809-04:00Good. Let me know when you have got things set up...Good. Let me know when you have got things set up. I wiukd really like you to be able to go to CW.<br /><br />By the way, I meant to comment about disorienting feelings. When I travel, it is not unusual for me to arrive at some former campsite of my own from the past 3 years - a campsite which Don never visited - and have this strange feeling that he is there - has been waiting for me. I think that is how I would best describe how it feels. And then, this spring, when I was doing so much trail building on this property - which was only purchased a year ago - I would be busy using the chainsaw and get the feeling that I was being watched and that the watcher was Don. I would stand up from sawing a log and feel like he should be there, and that he HAD been here working on the place with me last summer. Go figure on where I got that from. So often, I find I will be thinking that one thing happened, while my brain has to keep correcting the facts - saying, "No, no, it didn't happen that way. Don was never here. Don't you remember?" These sensations are always very disorienting as they require part of my brain to keep things straightened out - sort of like when you are walking in a precarious place and have to assign part of your brain to watching your footing and your balance, while the rest of your brain is busy figuring out where to step next so that you don't go over the edge of a cliff. Sometimes, It causes me some brain pain to keep this stuff sorted out. The disorientation seems to happen more when I am tired, stressed, and particularly when I am under the constant stress of doing my nomad thing -- yiu know how I love my autumns in the road, but they can be so incredibly stressful at times. I thought these odd sensations would become less over time, but in fact, it happened even more frequently during my third season of solitary wandering through the west - especially when I was camping in the back country in Utah. I suspect it is that my mind is busy creating false memories and now just has so much more fuel to work with as I add yet another dozen or so campsites, etc... into the memory mix. Maybe all of this has to do with living such an incredibly solitary life. Dunno. Don't worry much about it, but it has become yet another facet of my experience of traveling alone through life.bevhttp://magickcanoe.com/blog14noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5517881874258683381.post-60866194267222809272011-07-29T22:14:22.563-04:002011-07-29T22:14:22.563-04:00Hugs beautiful. I hope you do make it to SD. Wis...Hugs beautiful. I hope you do make it to SD. Wish I was going, but a logistical and financial nightmare from here.<br />XXXXAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5517881874258683381.post-37117446630501930532011-07-29T21:04:24.995-04:002011-07-29T21:04:24.995-04:00that is very kind of you bev. I do have paypal. Ne...that is very kind of you bev. I do have paypal. Need to see if it is bank account or card connected (see? I was paying attention when you were coaching Carolyn.) I'll send you an email.meganhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10064483599165161879noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5517881874258683381.post-23178435349687317212011-07-29T20:02:28.810-04:002011-07-29T20:02:28.810-04:00If I wanted to help out a bit with costs for SD, c...If I wanted to help out a bit with costs for SD, could I? Let me know. Can you do paypal?bevhttp://magickcanoe.com/blog14noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5517881874258683381.post-57373471809045981952011-07-29T17:43:01.810-04:002011-07-29T17:43:01.810-04:00Rumi nailed it didn’t he ?~!Rumi nailed it didn’t he ?~!Lynda Halliger Otvos (Lynda M O)https://www.blogger.com/profile/08938791116446859160noreply@blogger.com